Somewhere between "I know who I am" and "Who the do I want to be", I realized I had lost part of myself. I had lost the girl with fire for life. She was still there... but she was on a road to making everyone happy but herself and some of those most dear to her.
I heard a speaker talk about firing yourself from making others happy and taking happy back. And in that second, I realized that is what I had been trying to do for the last few months but had not put into words. So, now armed with this new set of words I take charge. I recharge and take charge. Not only do we have Sexy back... but we have happy back.
This is kinda freaky for me... I have to retrain my brain to not feel responsible for anther persons happiness. When I think that some parent has an issue with me or one of my husbands friends take issue with me I need to let that be their issue, not mine. Wow, seems so easy in print.... but to retrain the brain or even my heart... now that is huge.
Maybe getting back to blogging will help...